Worrying

I can safely and truthfully say I worry WAY too much. I have numerous anxiety habits- but that's for another post, another day, and a lot of you will understand it the way it can affect my mood, self esteem, and just ability to get things done.

When i'm spending hours with my mind focused on that one thing that probably won't even happen, or the reason for what that person really thinks of me, I should be filling out that time being happy, thinking And Why Should I care?

So, for you, those like me, the worriers, stop it. 

Worrying gets you no where. Clear your head, think practically and logically and smile. There honestly is no point in worrying because at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter. Your happinessand those closest to you is all that matters, and let's be honest, they generally should go hand in hand.

Don't take things too seriously, brush it off, be strong and calm! Oh, and give me a little smile now :)

love a lot,

Amanda 

xxx

                                           

50 Facts

I have no introductory explanation really, just that because I want to bring my blog alive, I'd let myself be more open so anyone who reads can know a little more about me.

1) I dream vividly and regularly, which makes me 

happy because sleep can be boring and it's like subconscious night time movies

2) I love bubbles

3) If my nails look good, they're fake- I am the biggest nail biter

4) I had 4 A*s and 4 As at GCSE

5) I spend half my life on YouTube
 6) I've been to 9 countries including Iceland on a school trip

7) When i'm uncomfortable in a social situation, you WILL know

8) I have a lot of weird phobias including animals

9) My most listened to artist has to be Hobbie Stuart (who once replied to my tweet *fangirl*)

10) My idol and girl crush is Zoella 

11) Once I develop an insecurity it is here to stay

12) The first proper and full series of books I ever read was Harry Potter
13) I've got 2 middle names
14) I have 3 dimples on my face, one of which is actually a scar
15) My tolerance level is floor low
16) I get bad anxieties
17) I cry too much and laugh too little
18) I am insanely weak willed
19) I have been drunk 3 times -and counting
20) I am very cheerful when with other people because people make me happy
21) My music taste can't be labelled, it's too broad
22) I do not like horror films
23) I am the least tidy person, but I am very neat... yeah doesn't make a lot of sense does it?!
24) I think summer is the best month
25) hate being out of control
26) I get jealous when people like the same celebrities as me
27) Embarrassed when i'm the only one who likes a celebrity
28) I've touched the Nottingham Forest football pitch
29) I'm good at giving advice
30) I'm bad at taking advice
31) I make way too many mistakes, but who's perfect ey?
32) I am so shy
33) I spent too much time regretting
34) I make plans I don't carry through mainly because...
35) I am VERY lazy
36) I have met the Loveable Rogues, Speaking in Shadows, Danny Miller and Richard and Adam

37) I'm scared of, just about, EVERYTHING
38)I am so different around my friends, maybe even fun! ha
39) I tell my sister literally everything
40) I find thinking on my feet extremely difficult
41) I have two small birthmarks
42)  I am close to my brother and sister
43) There are a lot of things that annoy me, including heavy breathing!!!
45) I have a huge photo wall on my bedroom wall
46) I don't believe in deleting photos
47) I find it hard to let go of people I don't really contact any more (see Old Friends post)
48) I take a stupid amount of stupid selfies... and um serious selfies
49) I love to shop and i love new clothes
50) I can make tongue shiver :PPPPP

Sorry, but half of these were made up on the spot and that's why a lot are so rubbish!

If I think of a better one, I'll replace some of the bad ones! - Dedication right there

Why don't you give me a cheeky follow and leave a comment, i'll love you FOREVER

Amandaaaaa
xxxx

Being 16

The time i'm writing this is 00:44, it's now not been my birthday for 44 minutes. I can safely say i had a brilliant sweet 16th. 

I'm now ready to say this year WILL be my year. 

Going into my first year of sixth form, I'm prepared, albeit scared (to death) for the workload, the newbies and the teachers this coming year.

I am determined to kick out my bad qualities, even though, as they say old habits die hard, but I am so excited to turn myself into a better person this year - starting with not eating all my birthday chocolate all at once.

Additionally, this year I want to bring my blog to life so i will start by a picture of the side of my face and the revealing of my name...

Hope this coming school year is a good'n for all.

Love Amanda

xxx

Españaaa

Hola! This year, we holidayed in Spain. Before my visit to Cómpeta, a small mountain village near Malaga, I thought spain was a bit unadventurous, bit mainstream and frankly, a bit boring. However, having been to Cómpeta, I've learned to fall in love with the heat, the country and the people. 

Everytime we ate out in the restaurants in the main Plaza (see below), we were surrounded by a good mixture of tourists and locals. Enough of a balance for us to feel comfortable but also for the place to feel authentic. Everyone was so friendly and helpful. We kept seeing the locals regularly and it made us feel right at home. Not to mention how good looking the other half to the human race are!

(big shoutout to Cómpeta, I highly recommend the beautiful village!)

The Church in the main plaza

Beautiful sunsets

A feature from another square

 ME ENCANTA ESPANA!

Planning

Right now I'm lacking inspiration for a new blog post. I have a few drafts stored up I'm considering making public but I don't feel like they quite make the cut. So, I've decided to make a bit of a plan, potential blog posts I could do this summer. 

1.) Summer Outfits?

2.) Beach Bikinis 

3.) A chapter per blog for a short story?

4.) Exercise plan/diary

Summer 2013

Summer 2013. Summer 2013. Summer 2013.

I will have finished my exams and Summer 2013 will be in the limbo between school and 6th form. So hopefully, no work, no stress.

I vow to...

Spend as much time as possible out meeting friends, making friends, broadening social skills, building confidence.

Learn new skills like how to cook an omelette or how to do 10 kick ups with a football

Learn how to apply make up so I can out not looking as plain and boring as I usually do. I'm not talking applying make up to become 'fake', it's just something I'm interested in!

Fix split ends because when I have split ends it really brings me down. I need to find a miracle shampoo/conditioner/hair serum, anything that will help my split ends

(any suggestions welcome)

Go to more events like a festival or a simple picnic in the park. I just want to create more memories.

Overcome a fear because i want to be brave and stop having irrational fears hold me back.

Old friends

I miss my old friends so much.

The sad thing is, old friends only really ever separate by drifting apart, which means there's never really any closure. I think this makes it hard because you don't really see it happen. Just one day, you find yourself not rushing to tell them the exciting thing that just happened, or finding yourself ask someone else for advice instead of your trusty bestie. Then, before you know it, you walk round school with only the trace of a smile at each other as you catch their eye.

You can easily agree you have new friends and good friends and passing friends and kind acquaintances but no one will ever replace your oldest friend, will they? You can love them equally but they're two different people, and as selfish as it sounds, you need them both.

personally to you  
"special friend" I miss you so much. I miss eating pringles in the coop car mark and i miss waiting around bored for my mum to stop talking. I miss playing with our dolls and fighting over game rules and story lines. I miss having sleep overs with you where we got nice treats and planned to stay up all night but lasted only a couple of hours. I miss confiding in you when things got tricky or when I fell out with someone else. I miss going to restaurants with you and your family. I miss your parents. I miss being so ignorantly happy with you. I never even considered you not being there with me. You were my second older sister and my best friend in the whole world. You really were a part of the family and I'll always, always remember how we were even if we aren't the same people any more.